Going Home

This weekend I get to go home.  My hometown is Cleveland, Ohio and I am really looking forward to visiting family and seeing my husband.  We are planning to go to the Cleveland Browns vs. Oakland Raiders game at the stadium with my cousins.  I am so excited!  Nothing better than watching 2 crappy teams play football in awesome weather!  Tailgating, here I come! Go Browns!  

At one time though, going home was not something I would consider doing.  I stayed away for many years.  It was a toxic place for me to be.  While I grew up there, I never felt as if it was my "home."  I loved when I moved away for many reasons but now I am getting to a point in my life where I feel like Cleveland is my home again.  I wish I could turn back time and gone back to visit many other times over the years because I missed so much.  My family missed so much.  However, life is life, and that didn't happen.  

One thing I am really looking forward to is spending time with my mom.  Since my dad passed away, we have gotten really close.  Something I longed for so many years of my life...but we are close now.  I am going to take her shopping (something we literally have never done) and spend some much needed time together.  She is amazing and I look up to her.  She and my dad had quite a tough life but have overcome some great obstacles.  They are both deaf and my dad did everything for her.  While my mom is struggling with some things in life, she is moving forward in life without him.  He asked her not to cry.  She told me that my dad told her that on July 3.  He died the 20th of July.  She told me that she is doing her best not to cry and hugging his T-shirts when she gets really sad.  She is the strongest person I know....I'm happy to be going home this weekend.

While this posting may be random to most of you....I think I needed to get these thoughts out.  I am having a hard time with the passing of my dad and I guess this has helped.  If you have gotten this far...thanks for reading.  

:) Candace